well, lemur and i have called it quits after a very loving and deep relationship.

we met at the famed housewarming party of feb 07.  we were instantly attracted to one another. (i mean, bam)  i still have a very clear picture of her dancing in my living room.  i remember thinking, who the hell is that!?  then i put two and two together and realized who she was and how complicated this would be.  we’d been hearing about each other for some time.

getting to know her, i realized she was a very grounded, caring, compassionate soul.  drop dead gorgeous.  fun to be around. playful. great conversationalist. super intelligent. a’s across the board.
after some false starts and stops, we ended up a couple. we’ve tried to make it work ever since.  lived in our own mythology.  shared on a very intimate level.  hard to express how much i care for her or how much i appreciate the gift of the time we’ve spent together.  i’ve never had a healthier relationship. never worked harder on communication or myself.

coming out of my divorce, i was sure that i’d never be in love again.  to my surprise, i did find it with lemur.  and now, in pain at the thought of parting from such a great friend and soulmate, it is hard not to think that no one will ever bond with me like that again.  she has set the bar so high.

i can never say for sure what will happen down the road, but i’m going to downshift to personal time for a spell. reorient. regroup. spend some time alone.  try to do fun things with my peeps.  focus on building a little more stability and listening carefully to what i need to hear within myself.