i have at least three people who i care about pissed off at me at the moment. i used to do whatever it took, lie, minimize issues, or spin the truth to avoid this kind of thing. now i’m in a much stronger place where i am saying what needs to be said and letting the other person deal with their own reaction. it still sucks most of the time, but it is a vast improvement to respect myself in this way. and the face i bring to the world is my true face.

at the moment it is sucking pretty hard. gotta love the vicissitudes of daily life. (yep, that is sarcasm)

not that i’ve turned into an asshole. i still do my damnedest to treat the world with compassion and respect, trying to recognize the inherent enlightenment in others. true, at times, this enlightenment seems to be pretty fucking dormant, but, i still try not to just tell people to fuck off. i try dialogue. i apologize for my mis-steps. still learning what to do when they simply don’t want to hear what i have to say, which seems to be the current trend.

anyway, the saga continues. suffer what there is to suffer. enjoy what there is to enjoy.